I know I've been absent for a little while. The truth is - my life was flipped upside down this past week. My aunt lost her battle with cancer last week after over a year and a half. It was one of those things that was always in the back of my mind that we would be getting a phone call but I can't say it fully prepared me for the actual call my family received. It was extremely difficult, especially seeing how sad my mom was. However, through all the sadness - I found myself at peace knowing that she was no longer in pain and in a far better place. Her funeral was a celebration of her life and the legacy she will be leaving. I love you Aunty Margoth and can't wait to be dancing and singing with you in heaven! <3
On another life note - I was not hired at the company I had been interning for for the past 6 months. I was really surprised by there decision and felt like I gave so much of myself to what I thought would be the perfect job for me. God had other plans though and I was able to leave with high recommendations so...now what? That is the major question I have been asking myself. Creative jobs are difficult to find here in Denver but I've been looking and have some prospects but maybe a full-time 9-5 job just isn't for me. I've thought about taking time and just building my portfolio or going back to museum work. Maybe now I'll go get my Masters? I.Don't.Know. It's difficult to make such huge decisions and I'm blessed to have so many options but maybe there are too many to choose from? (Can't believe this is an actual problem for me...). I've also thought about blogging and writing full time for a bit. See where my blog takes me. It's grown so much and you guys have all been so supportive I'm curious to see what else can come from it but again, I'm unsure.
I've been struggling creatively. I feel like I post on social media a lot what others want to see and not as much of what I want to be posting. How this began I have no idea but I feel like a lot of it had to do with keeping up appearances with the company I was interning for. Not saying that this is a bad thing at all but I felt like I pigeonholed myself. I was posting what they would love to see and re-post but not as much as what I love. I felt weird even posting a selfie on Instagram which I shouldn't since it is MY space. (Disclaimer: I don't condone posting selfies for every picture on Instagram but a few here and there are a-ok, haha).
Lots of questions to be answered. Lots of jobs to apply to. Lots of writing to do. Lots of photographs to be taken. Lots. Lots. Lots. But I feel, ok. I am a lot calmer about my situation than I ever thought I would be and I feel like a lot of this has to do with how great and supportive my parents have been. I live at home at the moment and I get to interact with my parents on a daily basis. They are such wonderful hard working people and so incredibly encouraging. I suggest something and they both basically yell at the same time "You can do whatever you want to do!" They really are amazing and I would be a mess without them. So, with my support and home and the support you all have given me - I think it will all work out. *fingers crossed*
So now, if you're curious. I'm changing things up a little bit and posting everything* (*maybe not everything) I want to post. You may be seeing more sunset photos or my face more and I guess a thank you in advance for sticking around with me through my crazy life and if not then, ok. You do your thang but I've stopped caring about amounts of likes, comments, followers, etc. If my social media and blogs grow - that's great! If they don't then, well, I know I posted something I liked and that's all that really matters.
If you want to follow along on my journey then here is my INSTAGRAM, TWITTER, TUMBLR, and PINTEREST. (I also made a not so minimal TUMBLR yesterday if any of you want to follow along and just see the random things I like.)
Thanks again for all your support everyone. I can't tell you how much I love getting e-mails asking me questions or the crazy amount of positive notes I get from you all! I'm amazed every single time! I know there is so much negativity out there and I have received so little of it that your positivity only encourages me more. THANK YOU!